Happy Thanksgiving!

Next month today, I will reach my 10 years of living here in the states. Awww time flies.

Even though I have been here for almost 10 years, it was my first time last night to make a thanksgiving feast! I guess I am more Americanized now :p

What was so special about this year that I wanted to celebrate thanksgiving.

Is not just because my parents happened to be here with me this year, but also, I guess it is the first time I can truly be thankful for my family!

Is sad but also true that I could never be truly grateful for my family before! There was so much pain in the past that I couldn't get myself to truly love them. I would always try to be nice and be good to them when they were around just because they are my parents, but after a week or two, I would grow really dry and weary and couldn't stand them anymore, then I would explode and things just got worst!!

Something has changed this year! God has healed my heart, and has gradually taken away my pain from the past, that I am able to love again, through the power of His love.

For the first time, I truly understand what 1 Corinthians 13 means. To love is to be patient, to be kind, to not be boastful or rude, to not be irritated and, the phase that speak to me the most is, to keep no record of being wronged. Doesn't it sound impossible? It is impossible for us to do it on our own, but through God we can. Not instantly but gradually. God has gradually changed me from the inside out. The joy and peace that I have from looking up to the cross, and knowing that everything is gonna be okay coz' Jesus is with me and God is in control.

It was really nice to spend time with my mom, cooking thanksgiving feast together! we laughed, we made a mess :) And the most important thing is, I was not just trying to love, but I actually enjoyed being with her. That's new but I love it! And I felt like i am getting to know her more :)

Is not easy, I know I will fall again, I may explode again someday but I know God will continue to heal and change my heart and give me the strength to grow and to love.

There are so many things to be thankful for this year, but the first and foremost is to be able to come back to Christ and to dwell in His love.

Continue to dwell in His love!!

Happy Thanksgiving!